Rss Feed

  1. new. but not for me.

    Friday, November 19, 2010

    3 people.
    3 people are moving on.
    3 people are leaving behind their past lovers.
    3 people are starting something new.
    and i'm watching movies. god please give me something to carry about ^:)^

    Posted by Marcelino at 10:31 PM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  2. Tu. Si l-ul tau. Si l-ul meu.

    Thursday, October 28, 2010

    Tu.
    E prematur. Este probabil ultima data cand risc acest lucru numit incredere. Dar e ceva ce ma face sa cred ca e pe bune de data asta. Cred ca ai fost prima persoana care chiar a vrut sa vada daca sunt bine. Cred ca e pt prima oara dupa mult timp cand simt ca nu'mi pasa numai mie. Asta e doar o supozitie. Cred. Tie: maybe i won't be here for ever. but i'm now.

    L-ul tau.
    Si el e aici. Si a mai fost in genul asta de sit. Dar lui ii atarna ceva, mie nu. Totusi e pe lista de ifiin.

    L-ul meu.
    L-ul meu nu e al meu. Nu o sa scriu aici toate lucrurile pe care i le as zice. Oricum nu i le voi zice. Lui: now and whenever you need.

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:38 PM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  3. You live and learn.

    Sunday, October 24, 2010

    Am invatat ca roata e rotunda.
    Am invatat cat de important e sa fi langa cineva cand are nevoie de tine.
    Am invatat ca promisiunile nu se fac in stare de "euforie".
    Am invatat ca tocurile si vodka nu se impaca bine.
    Am invatat ca unele persoane cred numai ce vor sa creada.
    Am invatat ca nu merita sa iti bati capul sa ii explici ceva unei pers care nu vrea sa auda asta.
    Am invatat ca unele persoane pur si simplu nu pot accepta adevarul.
    Am invatat ca majoritatea oamenilor sunt ipocriti.
    Si am mai invatat multe, dar n.am chef sa le postez.

    P.S. - Draga supa de dovlecei, sunt mereu aici sa ascult. Si multumesc. Te pup.

    Posted by Marcelino at 12:10 PM | Labels: , , | 3 comments |

  4. Starting up a brand new thing

    Monday, October 18, 2010

    To be able to give yourslef a shot you have to leave your past behind. It's the only way you can succeed.
    Scars... What about them? Whoever said 'scars heal' was a completely idiot. Scars are not even supposed to heal. They are called like this because represent the traces of all the things we've been through. They are supposed to remind us of what we beard.
    Leave your past behind, but don't forget it. You can't cheat your love. Cuz it's always going to be there. And there will be moments when you'll miss him/her and you'll ask yourslef 'what if...?'. And you are still going to be worried when you find out he/she has put himself/herself in danger. You are still going to want to tell him/her everything you couldn't so far.
    You get to feel this. But just for a moment. You get to be insecure. But you don't get to let this screw your actual life up. You miss them, but you move on. Don't give up to people who care about you just because of a memory. He/she is not here right now; but the people who do care about you ARE. Don't walk away from them. They may be the only opportunity you have.

    So give yourself a shot. Give them a shot. Start over. Start a brand new thing. And when in doubt, just take the next step.

    PS. - It applies to me too. But I'll be here. Whether you like it or not:)

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:02 AM | Labels: , , , , | 5 comments |

  5. Totally autumned

    Saturday, October 16, 2010

    A fi sau a nu fi... deprimat. Chiar asta e intrebarea. Pe vremea asta e cam greu sa nu fi. Si cand natura si amigdalele nu prea te lasa sa iesi afara, logic stai in casa. Si cum esti prea plictisit de TV si nu ai destula rabdare sa te uiti la un film, incepi sa te gandesti, lucru care in situatia mea nu duce la un rezultat prea bun. Existenta mea e stresata si complicata prin simplul fapt ca e a mea.
    Pe vremea asta nu ma mai ajuta nici post-it-urile, nici panoul, nici toate hartiile in care m-am ingropat. Ce trist. Imi plang de mila. Sunt naspa.
    Ti-am spus vreodata cat imi place frigul? Poate ca da. Desi sunt sigura ca nu ti-am spus niciodata de ce.
    Acum mi-e cald. Vreau sa-mi fie frig. Sa simt cum imi curge sangele in vene. Sa simt ca sunt vie; fiindca frigul este singurul lucru care inca mai poate face asta...
    Deprimare placuta in continuare!

    ps - probabil maine o sa sterg postul @-)

    Posted by Marcelino at 10:21 PM | Labels: , , , , | 0 comments |

  6. New video [lov.em]

    Sunday, October 10, 2010

    Posted by Marcelino at 2:13 AM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  7. Something to believe in

    Saturday, October 9, 2010

    De unde am inceput? De la urmatorul schimb de replici:
    M:nu poti sa te manifesti asa fata de ea; trebuie sa ai macar un pic simtul prieteniei adevarate.
    eu: ce-i aia?
    T: esti o panarama daca nu sti ce e prietenia adevarata.
    eu: ghinion.

    Chiar e asa grav? Chiar e vina mea? Eu am avut simtul ala. Au avut grija alte persoane sa mi-l pierd. De ce fac pe mama ranitilor? Pentru ca stiu cat de important e sa fie cineva ACOLO. Sau cel putin stiu cum e sa nu fie. Deci nu ma judeca pentru ca incerc sa fiu langa tine. Nu ma judeca pentru ca nu vreau sa plec. Fiindca, indiferent ca tu nu esti aici, eu sunt. Si pentru tine si pentru el si pentru ea si pentru inca cateva 'ea'. Si nu ma plang ca eu sunt cea care e pentru mine.

    P.S. - Nu o sa ezit sa imi iau revansa.\
    P.P.S. - Stiu, sunt o nenorocita:)). Ghinion, n-ai ce sa-mi faci:)
    again - postul a fost scris in nu tocmai cea mai 0% alch stare =)

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:04 PM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  8. Intrebare

    Wednesday, October 6, 2010

    Cine imi da antonimul cuvantului "a anticipa" e cel mai smecher om!

    Posted by Marcelino at 9:04 PM | Labels: | 11 comments |

  9. I wish...

    Sunday, October 3, 2010

    Wishes.. Why do we keep making wishes? We are aware of the impossibility of their accomplishment. 22:22, 0:00, a falling star, an airplane. Little things. We keep hoping that our wishes will accomplish. We have expectations; and this is the disappointments come from.
    Anyway, if you make a wish, you can't pretend that you don't think deep inside that it's even a slightly chance to have it fulfilled. No matter how hard I try, I can't believe in coincidences... Ok, between me and you, I'm the emotional one.
    Even you end up damadged, you keep hoping. What happens when you get tired? I have been making wishes every single day in the last year. And I actually thought it had accomplished. You know what? STOP. I'm tired of waiting, tired of hoping, tired of believing. And although I say this,
    my dot turns to be a comma. Cause you know I'll be here.

    "falling down like a waterfall..."

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:57 PM | Labels: , , , | 0 comments |

  10. Once in a lifetime.

    Saturday, October 2, 2010

    " Lightning doesn't often strike twice. It's a once in a lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually the pain will go away, the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself. To recover from something you never saw coming. But, sometimes the odds are in your favor. If you're in just the right place at just the right time you can take a helluva hit. And still have a shot at surviving." (Meredith Grey)

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:30 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  11. I have just woke up. And the first thing I see is that an old friend tagged me in a picture as "love expert". And I really wonder why he did it.
    Cuz sincerly, I have to face the facts. My love life has always been fucked up!

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:24 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  12. Pick me, choose me, love me...

    Wednesday, September 29, 2010

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:50 PM | Labels: , , , , , | 0 comments |

  13. For you.

    Saturday, September 25, 2010

    "When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again..."

    Posted by Marcelino at 2:49 PM | Labels: , , , , | 0 comments |

  14. De ce un baiat trimite mai degraba un email decat o scrisoare? De ce un baiat nu se mai straduieste sa impresioneze o fata, ci se gandeste ca daca primeste un refuz persoana respectiva chiar nu vrea sa fie cu el? De ce un baiat nu mai este in stare sa cumpere o floare? De ce un baiat nu e in stare sa te duca noaptea in mijlocul strazii si sa iti propuna sa dansati? De ce un baiat prefera sa iti vorbeasca pe Y!M decat sa te caute si sa vorbiti fata in fata? De ce azi un baiat e mult prea pervers ca sa aiba sentimente pentru o fata? De ce trebuie sa traim in secolul 21?:
    Unde s-a pierdut romantismul? Si de ce azi nimeni nu mai da 2 bani pe el? De ce azi prea putine persoane mai cred in dragoste?

    Poate ca sunt exagerata. Poate ca cer prea mult. Poate ca doar imi place sa visez. Si mi-ar placea sa stiu ca e acolo. Ca exista cineva caruia ii pasa. Ca exista o persoana care sa ma intrebe dimineata "cum ai dormit?". Ca acea persoana nu o sa ma intrebe ce am atunci cand sunt suparata, ci doar o sa ma ia in brate fara sa imi spuna un cuvant. De ce niciodata nu am avut o persoana care sa faca asta? Poate din cauza ca eu inca mai cred in romantism, desi nu exista un baiat care sa o mai faca...

    Cred ca nu o sa imi primesc vreodata trandafirul ala albastru...

    Posted by Marcelino at 1:39 PM | Labels: , , , | 2 comments |

  15. Better not to...

    Saturday, September 11, 2010

    You're not here. Good. You are not even supposed to be. Like I said, Karma sucks ^^

    Posted by Marcelino at 12:18 AM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  16. The ties that bind

    Thursday, June 17, 2010

    "Meredith Grey: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. "

    I don't even know how I started my thoughts. And if I try to find out what brought me here, I am completly sure that I don't want to remember. Is there anything which tells you when it's too late? Many of us wish this thing exist. But it doesn't. So you have to get used to setting your own limits.
    We are people. We make mistakes. We try to fix them, but then we realise that we didn't even accept them. Does the word 'unforgivable' exists? Is there a such thing that can't be forgiven even by those who pretend loving you? Or do We have enough self-control to give up our pride and surrender? How good are we in keep a fire burning? Are we good enough for not put it out? What happens when you turn your look for a minute and you realise the flame is not as bright as it used to be?
    Then, it's not about what me or you must do to keep the flame from dumping down. It's about what we can do to fire it up.
    And there is time.. which takes care of it. There is time to make you realise if, after a while, the things are the same as you left them; time helps you to see if she is still there, if there is anything changed. And sometimes you need time. Because you need to evaluate the whole thing. And when the time passed, you find yourself still there. Not because you didn't have the opportunity to leave; not because there are obligations which keep you there; but because you wanted to be there. Because even the things which are thought to be unforgivable are not so good reasons to pack yourself and run away. The real reason which make you stay is the faith of relighting the flame. And she is always there to help you reight it. Always. Because she never decides to leave.
    And it comes the moment when I say: I stay. But would you...?

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:01 PM | Labels: , , | 1 comments |

  17. Just because!

    Saturday, May 15, 2010

    Spune-mi 4 lucruri pe care nu le suporti!

    ca sa raspund si eu...
    ipocrizia si minciuna (nu cred ca urasc ceva mai mult pe lumea asta), inselatoria(daca nu te simti in stare de ceva stabil, las-o balta!) si vorbitul pe la spate(intotdeauna am fost genul de persoana care spune verde in fata tot ce are de zis; nu sunt adepta frazei "ce nu sti, nu te poate rani"; prefer sa stiu adevarul ca sa pot sa imi dau seama de situatia in care ma aflu si mai ales de persoanele care ma inconjoara);

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:07 PM | Labels: , , | 6 comments |

  18. Kahin to...

    Thursday, March 18, 2010

    Soundtrackul de la un film cu adevarat touchin' ...





    Somewhere, somewhere, must be the world where you are with me,
    Where I, where you, and where only our emotions reside,
    Where the morning approaches in the rays of your eyes,
    Where lullabies of the moon are heard in your arms.

    I wonder where that world is,
    I wonder if it even exists,
    Where my life is not so disappointed in me.

    In whose longing I am breathless?
    Do not know whose embrace I am lost in...
    Left searching for the route from the destination
    [But] the destination lost somewhere in the route.

    Somewhere, somewhere, there is an intoxication in each of our meetings,
    Where our lips kiss with every spoken word,
    Say the horizon, the world, and your earth and sky,
    Where you are is where my laughter, my happiness, my life are...

    I wonder where that world is,
    I wonder if it even exists,
    Where my life is not so disappointed in me.

    Posted by Marcelino at 9:23 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  19. ^^Polish memories^^Part 1^^

    Friday, March 12, 2010

    Who was in Poland know what's the matter with "polish things" :D. Well, I start saying that this was the best experience I have ever had. When I first saw all of you, I thought you were great people, but now I know this thing for sure. I enjoyed talking different kind of things with everyone and I realized that we can use not only spoken languages, but soul language too.
    First, I'm glad because I have learned many good things from the others(besides the workshops which were useful indeed) and this is the best way to learn. I have also learned many words in Italian and Latvian and I found out that I really love this languages.
    I have learned that you can definitely attach to some people in ten days if you spend all your time with them.
    I know everyone felt sad when we left Nasutow, but remember: don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened. Somebody told me that we are supposed to meet one person at least two times. So let me believe this was only first time. I hope that someday and somehow we will meet again and we will remind each other all the moments we have spent together. You know, there some people and some moments which aren't supposed to be forgotten due to the way they influenced your life. And as Hugo said: No matter what stupid things did I do, you are all in my heart. And this is what I think too.
    I don't wanna be sad because now we are 1500-3000 km apart from each other or because some bad things happened there; because I want to keep only the good memories which we made one close to each other and all the good thing I have learned from you.
    If I will run into you on the street I don't wanna say "Hello" to you; I wanna say 'Katoooobia' because I think this is our way to say hello now.
    About the workshops... they have been really inspired when they had thought about them. We have learned so many useful things. E.g.: we painted mugs and made T-shirts, we made Batik using wax and colors, we made earrings using cardboard, and camera using match boxes and films. It was like we made souvenirs by ourselves:D. Also, the international evenings were great because we learned many thing about all the countries involved in the project and the people who presented their country taught us wonderful     national dances xD.
    I don't know if any of you noticed, but when we left I refused to say 'good-bye', because I refused to believe that we will never meet again. I have only said 'see you soon'. It's very hard to help yourself crying when everyone around you is crying. There is only one thing I know for sure: in Nasutow I was surrounded by sentimental people who have a very good way to see life and I am glad I have so many things to discuss with them. And also it was very touching to see everyone so sad at the separation time... You should have been made of stone not to feel a deep sadness in that moment...
    Well, this wasn't my most inspired moment but all I know it's that I will miss everyone. And it doesn't matter how far we are from each other. It matters that we have great memories in our souls. Polish memories !

    P.S. - Mi scusi noo ! Katooobia :))

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:14 PM | Labels: , , , | 7 comments |

  20. See you soon.

    Monday, March 1, 2010

    După cum ştiţi (unii dintre voi), mâine o să plec în Polonia pentru un proiect, ceea ce înseamnă că 10 zile nu voi mai putea scrie pe blog; vă sugerez să nu daţi mesaje (pe telefon) şi să nu sunaţi pentru că o să vă coste destul de mult. O să profit de ieşirea asta ca să îmi pun puţină ordine în gânduri (curăţenia de primăvară) şi de asemenea ca să mă mai destind după luna trecută:). Sper să ne revedem la fel cum ne-am despărţit.

    Numa' bine!

    P.S. - Multă baftă colegilor mei la olimpiada de info.

    Posted by Marcelino at 9:07 PM | Labels: , , , | 7 comments |

  21. Dragobetele în variantă adaptată.

    Wednesday, February 24, 2010

    Puţini sunt cei care ştiu data la care se sărbătoreşte de fapt Ziua Îndrăgostiţilor. Şi mai puţini sunt cei care ştiu cu adevărat să sărbătorească acest eveniment. Ce am primit noi de Dragobete ? O piesă de teatru. Ce fel de piesă de teatru ? Crede-mă pe cuvânt că nu vrei să şti. Pentru 7 lei, am stat şi am ascultat o oră şi 30 de minute, trei bărbaţi cum îşi povesteau fanteziile sexuale. Nu mă deranjează că am pierdut 7 lei, ci mă deranjează că am pierdut o oră şi jumătate auzind lucruri pe care oricum le aud în fiecare zi în clasă. A fost o pierdere de timp. Aceasta este ţara în care trăim. Având în vedere că azi au fost Dragobetele, ar fi fost mai plăcută o piesă care să abordeze această temă.

    Valentine's Day e sărbătoarea(dacă se poate numi sărbătoare) despre care ştie toată lumea. Sincer, mie mi se pare că are doar valoare comercială şi este un motiv bun pentru producători să scoată pe piaţă tot felul de chestii. Adevăratul înţeles al Zilei Îndrăgostiţilor nu este un lucru. Este un sentiment. Şi pe acesta nu îl poţi cumpără de nicăieri.

    În ziua de azi, nu cred că mai găseşti pe cineva care să pună preţ pe sentimente... sau poate 2-3 persoane. Toată lumea iubeşte cât ai bate din palme. Mi-e milă de ei.

    Nu mă interesează să fi de acord cu mine. Eu asta cred.

    Posted by Marcelino at 9:35 PM | Labels: , , , | 5 comments |

  22. Mai multa "iubire" decat azot in aer !

    Tuesday, February 23, 2010

    acă arunc o privire prin lista mea de Y!M, găsesc cel puţin cinci persoane care au la status "te iubesc". Câteodată le-aş spune: "Să mori tu ?". Aşa se mai "iubesc" câte unii după o săptămână de "relaţie".

    Sau, să zicem, ok, se iubesc. Dar nu prea e de bun simţ să-ţi etalezi "iubirea" aşa pe la status, pe haifaiv, eventual mai dai şi un mass ca să vadă toată lista cât de mult "vă iubiţi" voi doi. Să fim serioşi. Iubirea ar trebui să o ţineţi doar pentru voi, că doar e a voastră, nu a întregii lumi. E ceva gen: "Sunt eu, tu şi restul lumii.".

    Cred că voi spuneţi "te iubesc" mai des decât "salut". Păcat că nu preţuiţi cuvintele acestea şi mai ales, sentimentul. E ceva unic. Nu se găseşte la orice margine de drum. Părerea mea.

    Posted by Marcelino at 9:52 PM | Labels: , | 3 comments |

  23. Oldie, but goldie

    Sunday, February 21, 2010

    My favourite one :DDD

    Posted by Marcelino at 8:08 PM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  24. Impresii de la ONCh 2010

    Saturday, February 13, 2010

    Pai, avand in vedere ca a fost prima mea tangenta cu faza nationala a olimpiadei de chimie ( sau mai bine zis a vreunui concurs de pana acum) mi s-a parut o experienta foarte frumoasa. Am invatat multe lucruri. Nu numai despre chimie, ci si in general, despre oameni. Sti, e surprinzator sa vezi ca exista un loc unde ceilalti nu te percep ca pe o ciudata doar pentru ca iti place o materie care lor li se pare asemanatoare cu chineza(dupa cum este cazul liceului meu);

    Un alt lucru care m`a surprins intr-un mod placut: sincer, ma asteptam sa fie o multime de elevi care tot ceea ce vad este chimie si atat @-). Si, culmea, am dat peste oameni sociabili, amuzanti si foate diferiti de cei pe care mi-i imaginam eu.

    Subiectele au fost intr`adevar la un nivel foarte ridicat (ca nah e nationala) si, desi am fost pusa intr`o situatie destul de dificila, acest lucru m`a ambitionat si am de gand ca la anul sa fiu mult mai pregatita ca anul acesta.

    Distractie... a fost cat cuprinde. Trecand peste partea in care am fost "sub papucul" a doua profesoare care au dormit cu noi in camera, am avut si nopti mai... "deaspura papucului" :D. In principiu, ma bucur ca am avut ocazia sa`mi fac o gramada de prieteni si sa experimentez o gramada de lucruri noi in cadrul acestei olimpiade care sper ca nu va fi prima si ultima, ci doar prima.

    "Drumul celor o mie de pasi incepe cu primul."

    P.S. - Era sa uit de bucataresele "deosebit de amabile" de la cantina care au genul de comportament ce te face sa iti doresti sa pleci cat mai repede din tara asta...

    Posted by Marcelino at 5:33 PM | Labels: , , | 16 comments |

  25. I hate this part !

    Friday, February 12, 2010

    Cea mai urâtă parte din an este atunci când răceşti indiferent de anotimpul în care se întâmplă asta( de obicei iarna). Urăsc să fiu răcită şi mai ales să-mi curgă nasul ca un robinet defect de biuretă blocat pe deschis! Cum e posibil în 5 minute să foloseşti 12 şerveţele ? :O Ah abia aştept să scap o data şi de asta ...

    Posted by Marcelino at 11:28 AM | Labels: , , | 1 comments |

  26. Endless dreams

    Thursday, February 11, 2010

    Ce e aşa rău în a visa ? Sau mai bine zis în a vrea să-ţi îndeplineşti visul ? De ce toţi oamenii din jur îţi spun că trebuie să lupţi pentru visele tale, dar atunci când chiar trebuie să faci asta te dau înapoi ? De ce toată lumea se gândeşte la "împlinirea viselor" ca la o grămadă de bani fără vârf ? Ăsta e destinul omului ? La ce bun să ai bani cu tonele dacă nu eşti ce ai vrut să fi, dacă n-ai persoanele dragi lângă tine ? La dracu cu banii!


    "Am nevoie de cineva care să mă înţeleagă şi care să creadă în toate visele mele !"

    Posted by Marcelino at 10:02 PM | Labels: , , | 13 comments |