Me Vs. Reality

I have just woke up. And the first thing I see is that an old friend tagged me in a picture as "love expert". And I really wonder why he did it.
Cuz sincerly, I have to face the facts. My love life has always been fucked up!

"When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again..."

De ce un baiat trimite mai degraba un email decat o scrisoare? De ce un baiat nu se mai straduieste sa impresioneze o fata, ci se gandeste ca daca primeste un refuz persoana respectiva chiar nu vrea sa fie cu el? De ce un baiat nu mai este in stare sa cumpere o floare? De ce un baiat nu e in stare sa te duca noaptea in mijlocul strazii si sa iti propuna sa dansati? De ce un baiat prefera sa iti vorbeasca pe Y!M decat sa te caute si sa vorbiti fata in fata? De ce azi un baiat e mult prea pervers ca sa aiba sentimente pentru o fata? De ce trebuie sa traim in secolul 21?:
Unde s-a pierdut romantismul? Si de ce azi nimeni nu mai da 2 bani pe el? De ce azi prea putine persoane mai cred in dragoste?

Poate ca sunt exagerata. Poate ca cer prea mult. Poate ca doar imi place sa visez. Si mi-ar placea sa stiu ca e acolo. Ca exista cineva caruia ii pasa. Ca exista o persoana care sa ma intrebe dimineata "cum ai dormit?". Ca acea persoana nu o sa ma intrebe ce am atunci cand sunt suparata, ci doar o sa ma ia in brate fara sa imi spuna un cuvant. De ce niciodata nu am avut o persoana care sa faca asta? Poate din cauza ca eu inca mai cred in romantism, desi nu exista un baiat care sa o mai faca...

Cred ca nu o sa imi primesc vreodata trandafirul ala albastru...

You're not here. Good. You are not even supposed to be. Like I said, Karma sucks ^^

"Meredith Grey: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. "

Spune-mi 4 lucruri pe care nu le suporti!

ca sa raspund si eu...
ipocrizia si minciuna (nu cred ca urasc ceva mai mult pe lumea asta), inselatoria(daca nu te simti in stare de ceva stabil, las-o balta!) si vorbitul pe la spate(intotdeauna am fost genul de persoana care spune verde in fata tot ce are de zis; nu sunt adepta frazei "ce nu sti, nu te poate rani"; prefer sa stiu adevarul ca sa pot sa imi dau seama de situatia in care ma aflu si mai ales de persoanele care ma inconjoara);

Soundtrackul de la un film cu adevarat touchin' ...

Who was in Poland know what's the matter with "polish things" :D. Well, I start saying that this was the best experience I have ever had. When I first saw all of you, I thought you were great people, but now I know this thing for sure. I enjoyed talking different kind of things with everyone and I realized that we can use not only spoken languages, but soul language too.
First, I'm glad because I have learned many good things from the others(besides the workshops which were useful indeed) and this is the best way to learn. I have also learned many words in Italian and Latvian and I found out that I really love this languages.
I have learned that you can definitely attach to some people in ten days if you spend all your time with them.
I know everyone felt sad when we left Nasutow, but remember: don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened. Somebody told me that we are supposed to meet one person at least two times. So let me believe this was only first time. I hope that someday and somehow we will meet again and we will remind each other all the moments we have spent together. You know, there some people and some moments which aren't supposed to be forgotten due to the way they influenced your life. And as Hugo said: No matter what stupid things did I do, you are all in my heart. And this is what I think too.
I don't wanna be sad because now we are 1500-3000 km apart from each other or because some bad things happened there; because I want to keep only the good memories which we made one close to each other and all the good thing I have learned from you.
If I will run into you on the street I don't wanna say "Hello" to you; I wanna say 'Katoooobia' because I think this is our way to say hello now.
About the workshops... they have been really inspired when they had thought about them. We have learned so many useful things. E.g.: we painted mugs and made T-shirts, we made Batik using wax and colors, we made earrings using cardboard, and camera using match boxes and films. It was like we made souvenirs by ourselves:D. Also, the international evenings were great because we learned many thing about all the countries involved in the project and the people who presented their country taught us wonderful national dances xD.
I don't know if any of you noticed, but when we left I refused to say 'good-bye', because I refused to believe that we will never meet again. I have only said 'see you soon'. It's very hard to help yourself crying when everyone around you is crying. There is only one thing I know for sure: in Nasutow I was surrounded by sentimental people who have a very good way to see life and I am glad I have so many things to discuss with them. And also it was very touching to see everyone so sad at the separation time... You should have been made of stone not to feel a deep sadness in that moment...
Well, this wasn't my most inspired moment but all I know it's that I will miss everyone. And it doesn't matter how far we are from each other. It matters that we have great memories in our souls. Polish memories !

P.S. - Mi scusi noo ! Katooobia :))

După cum ştiţi (unii dintre voi), mâine o să plec în Polonia pentru un proiect, ceea ce înseamnă că 10 zile nu voi mai putea scrie pe blog; vă sugerez să nu daţi mesaje (pe telefon) şi să nu sunaţi pentru că o să vă coste destul de mult. O să profit de ieşirea asta ca să îmi pun puţină ordine în gânduri (curăţenia de primăvară) şi de asemenea ca să mă mai destind după luna trecută:). Sper să ne revedem la fel cum ne-am despărţit.

Numa' bine!

P.S. - Multă baftă colegilor mei la olimpiada de info.